what I want to call paradise only resembles my current status in the fact that my wife and kids are with me. I will not deceive myself into thinking that at times I would call paradise any place other than where my wife and kids are either.
No, I want to say that paradise is a state of mind that can be where ever I am. There need to be no tropical trees or cool breeze--through those things could enhance my experience. Paradise is the ability to use my environment and make it work for me. I do not want to need to go away on vacation. I want to have a vacation with me where I go!
Alas, my idealism is only that, idealism. I am no partaker in this daily dream that I cast to sound so profound. I do believe it is possible. I admit that I do not have the sensibility to realize my own idea state of mind. I am just glad that I have an idea of something good in my mind.
When I fantasize about my happiest days, I think of being in the same situations day in and out but being grateful to have a situation to be in! I want to be grateful for my day no matter how snotty it ends up being. I want to be glad that I get to tell the person profaning in my presence or cursing me it is not necessary. I want to be stoked that I get to sit for hours in a hot office with mind-numbing calls that never change!
I am not there yet. I may decide later that I never want to be there! I am glad that I get to decide how to behave.
Maybe my paradise is being able to gripe about things without fear of persecution? I get to live here and go through life succeeding based on my ability to set goals and rebound from failure. Maybe this is just another day in paradise. Many people in the world do not have the luxury I have to complain.